User blog comment:QuestionTuesdayFTW/My disengagement from the community/@comment-5931940-20160810084130

Sad to see you go, QT. You were one of the few positive people left in the community. I'm glad you'll still be a judge in the UA though.

I had a talk with FA as well, and I can see his side of the story too. The problem is that his actions in the past have made it a bit hard to trust him, so some feel it's not easy to know if his words now are true or if it's a manipulation attempt. However, I personally don't consider him to be a threat as such, and he was nice to have around, with his quirky humour and overall positive energy. Sadly his actions in the past, like banning Alpha and then telling him I did it (despite us getting along nicely), causes some tensions. It shows he is capable of such deeds, and then this latest thing now with the secret chat. He admitted that he said some things about me behind my back at that time as well, which he regrets now, since he feels it wasn't fair. And again, he did this while we were on good terms. So that can cause some trust issues, sadly.

Loyalty is sort of important in a small community like ours, and when you don't know forsure if someone who is nice to you might stab you in the back at any moment, it can feel rather unpleasant. But I forgive him, since we talked it out. We are once again on good terms, as far as I know :) But I don't wanna be some dictator in the chat who overrules people. I just try to be neutral and diplomatic, I try to do what the majority wants, since it's not my "job" to force people into stuff they don't feel comfortable with. I also have to listen to what John wants, since he is co-admin. I made him co-admin for that very reason too, that I need someone less "sentimental" than me to help make decisions at times like there.

But I wish both you and FA the best :)